How?

How is it that a love so deep that he carried her up their apartment stairs every day when she had lyme disease, could now betray her so thoroughly? A love that brought her to live in a place that made her physically ill, for him, has now been trashed? A love that lasted through 16 years of marriage, four children, countless stresses and joys, now for nothing? How could the man who insisted she give him her phone number the first time they met, even after she said "no" repeatedly, now want a separate listing? A stabilizing force that was the only thing that kept him sane, now gone?

"There but for the Grace of God"....but do I have more grace than you? I don't think so.

As we read Psalm 50 at Paraklesis on Wednesday evening, I thought of you.